Black Hole

Black hole of despair:
No light wavers past stable
singularity.

Black hole of despair:
At unstable horizon
no light can escape.

Urgent Research

Can "urgent" research
task be so basic?  It was.
I got Stuarted.

Song for Kramer, Five

That blind day you leaned
on me, broken and lost - I
never loved you more.

Song for Kramer, Four

Words fail, how I miss
my tenacious baby, dead
before victory.

Song for Kramer, Three

I chose neither death,
nor love, for my puppy.  Both
happened - helplessly.

Song for Kramer, Two

My world has no warmth,
or hue.  Wisdom tastes like ash,
since my puppy died.

Song for Kramer

Proof of God's kindness:
Improbable puppy love
in hard, lonely world.

My Best Friend

I lost my best friend today. Cosmo Kramer was a little guy with a big heart. He was so resigned, and so trusting, when he snuggled into my lap and took his last breath (and drooled his last drool) in my arms. I betrayed him. I hope he understands I wanted to spare him the pain. I hope he wasn't afraid of the darkness.

Tomorrow will be a new day that Kramer won't see. Tonight I still wear the jacket that held him as he expired. I don't want to change. I don't want to shower. I don't want to go to sleep. As long as I stay in today, I exist in a space that I shared with that special guy for whom I was the whole world.

I'll never love another dog again.  I don't have the strength to give my heart away, and have it abandoned again so soon.

On a Dinner Party Among People Doing Exactly What They're Supposed to Be Doing

I fall silent, feel
like failure, because they lack
imagination.

Jiggling

Jiggling with fear and
fupa.  End of days.  Nothing
is in my control.