Paranoid

I don't see how it's possible to be in a state of both panic and amotivation, but somehow I'm pulling it off. Last week I had this dream that I was eating, which always - without fail - indicates that I'm going to fall over sick. But then I didn't get sick. Last night I had another dream about eating. It was a veritable feast, which is bad; the more I eat the worse the illness is. And in addition to that, I felt nauseated even in the dream. I was chomping down on raw lobster and raw eggs. Truly, I'm terrified at what may be in store for me.